Era e par\u00eb<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb do t\u00eb fryj\u00eb nj\u00eb er\u00eb e leht\u00eb dhe un\u00eb e di se ajo er\u00eb do t\u00eb ma sjell\u00eb p\u00ebrs\u00ebri kujtimin t\u00ebnd. Ndoshta do t\u00eb jem ulur pran\u00eb dritares, me nj\u00eb filxhan kafeje n\u00eb duar, duke par\u00eb njer\u00ebzit q\u00eb kalojn\u00eb rrug\u00ebs, kur papritur nj\u00eb puhiz\u00eb do t\u00eb hyj\u00eb n\u00eb dhom\u00eb dhe do t\u00eb m\u00eb prek\u00eb fytyr\u00ebn. N\u00eb at\u00eb \u00e7ast nuk do t\u00eb m\u00eb duhet t\u00eb pyes se nga vjen. Do ta di. Do t\u00eb vij\u00eb prej asaj kohe t\u00eb larg\u00ebt kur ti ishe pran\u00eb meje dhe bota dukej m\u00eb e bardh\u00eb, m\u00eb e past\u00ebr dhe m\u00eb e bukur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk e di n\u00ebse kujtimet kan\u00eb er\u00eb. Por kur mendoj p\u00ebr ty, m\u00eb duket se kan\u00eb. Kan\u00eb er\u00ebn e pranver\u00ebs, t\u00eb luleve t\u00eb para, t\u00eb shiut q\u00eb binte mbi rrug\u00ebt e qytetit dhe t\u00eb atyre mbr\u00ebmjeve kur ne ecnim pa ditur se ku po shkonim. Mjaftonte q\u00eb ishim bashk\u00eb. Nuk na duhej asnj\u00eb destinacion. Rruga vet\u00eb ishte k\u00ebnaq\u00ebsia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ti ishe dashuria ime e par\u00eb. Ndoshta pik\u00ebrisht p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb arsye mbete edhe dashuria q\u00eb nuk u plak kurr\u00eb brenda meje. Njeriu mund t\u00eb dashuroj\u00eb shum\u00eb her\u00eb, mund t\u00eb nd\u00ebrtoj\u00eb familje, t\u00eb njoh\u00eb njer\u00ebz t\u00eb rinj dhe t\u00eb jetoj\u00eb vite t\u00eb t\u00ebra, por dashuria e par\u00eb ka nj\u00eb dhom\u00eb t\u00eb ve\u00e7ant\u00eb n\u00eb shpirt. Ajo nuk mbyllet plot\u00ebsisht kurr\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Aty jeton ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe sa her\u00eb q\u00eb humbas n\u00eb rrug\u00ebt e jet\u00ebs, kthehem atje.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mbret\u00ebresha ime<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00eb takova n\u00eb nj\u00eb pasdite t\u00eb zakonshme. Ishte fundpranver\u00eb dhe qyteti dukej sikur sapo ishte zgjuar nga nj\u00eb gjum\u00eb i gjat\u00eb. Njer\u00ebzit l\u00ebviznin ngadal\u00eb, dyqanet kishin hapur dyert dhe nga nj\u00eb kafene n\u00eb cep t\u00eb rrug\u00ebs vinte aroma e kafes\u00eb s\u00eb sapob\u00ebr\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ti ishe ulur pran\u00eb dritares.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk e di pse syt\u00eb e mi u ndal\u00ebn te ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ndoshta sepse kishe nj\u00eb qet\u00ebsi q\u00eb nuk e kisha par\u00eb te askush tjet\u00ebr. Nuk po flisje, nuk po qeshje me z\u00eb t\u00eb lart\u00eb, nuk po p\u00ebrpiqeshe t\u00eb t\u00eb shihnin. Thjesht ishe aty, duke lexuar di\u00e7ka.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kur ngrite syt\u00eb, u takuam me shikim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vet\u00ebm nj\u00eb \u00e7ast.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Por disa \u00e7aste zgjasin m\u00eb shum\u00eb se vite.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u00eb von\u00eb do ta quaja at\u00eb dit\u00eb fillimin e gjith\u00e7kaje.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ti u b\u00ebre mbret\u00ebresha ime jo sepse t\u00eb vendosa nj\u00eb kuror\u00eb, por sepse zemra ime t\u00eb zgjodhi pa m\u00eb pyetur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Puthja<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Takimet tona u shtuan. Fillimisht ishin t\u00eb shkurtra. Pastaj u b\u00ebn\u00eb m\u00eb t\u00eb gjata. Filluan me nj\u00eb kafe dhe p\u00ebrfundonin me or\u00eb t\u00eb t\u00ebra bisedash.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ti m\u00eb tregoje p\u00ebr \u00ebndrrat e tua. Un\u00eb t\u00eb tregoja p\u00ebr frik\u00ebrat e mia.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk e kuptoja si mund t’i tregoja dikujt kaq shum\u00eb gj\u00ebra p\u00ebr veten. Por me ty ishte ndryshe. Pran\u00eb teje nuk kisha nevoj\u00eb t\u00eb shtiresha.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nj\u00eb mbr\u00ebmje ra shi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ne po q\u00ebndronim n\u00ebn nj\u00eb streh\u00eb t\u00eb vog\u00ebl. Ti po qeshje sepse flok\u00ebt t\u00eb ishin lagur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cPse po qesh?\u201d t\u00eb pyeta.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSepse po m\u00eb shikon sikur jam e vetmja grua n\u00eb bot\u00eb.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cP\u00ebr mua je.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
U b\u00ebre serioze.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pastaj m\u00eb pyete:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cV\u00ebrtet?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cV\u00ebrtet.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u00eb afrove fytyr\u00ebn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe m\u00eb puthe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ishte puthja ime e par\u00eb e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jo sepse ishte puthja e par\u00eb n\u00eb jet\u00ebn time, por sepse ishte puthja e par\u00eb q\u00eb e ndjeva me shpirt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
At\u00eb nat\u00eb u ktheva n\u00eb sht\u00ebpi duke ecur n\u00eb shi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk ndjeva as ftoht\u00eb, as lodhje.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kisha bot\u00ebn time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00cbndrrat<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ne filluam t\u00eb nd\u00ebrtonim \u00ebndrra.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Do t\u00eb udh\u00ebtonim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Do t\u00eb kishim nj\u00eb sht\u00ebpi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Do t\u00eb pinim kafen\u00eb s\u00eb bashku \u00e7do m\u00ebngjes.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Do t\u00eb plakeshim duke u ankuar p\u00ebr dhimbjet e vogla t\u00eb trupit dhe duke qeshur me kujtimet e rinis\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ishim t\u00eb rinj dhe besonim se dashuria mjaftonte p\u00ebr gjith\u00e7ka.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ndoshta nuk mjafton.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Por pa t\u00eb, shum\u00eb gj\u00ebra nuk kan\u00eb kuptim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ti m\u00eb thoshe:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cDua t\u00eb jem pran\u00eb teje edhe kur t\u00eb mos kemi asgj\u00eb.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Un\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrgjigjesha:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cN\u00ebse t\u00eb kam ty, nuk m\u00eb duhet shum\u00eb.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
K\u00ebto fjal\u00eb dukeshin t\u00eb thjeshta at\u00ebher\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sot m\u00eb duken si pasuria m\u00eb e madhe e asaj kohe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ndarja<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pastaj erdhi dita q\u00eb nuk donim ta imagjinonim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ti duhej t\u00eb largoheshe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk ishte largim nga dashuria, t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn k\u00ebshtu m\u00eb the.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cIk p\u00ebr pak.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSa \u00ebsht\u00eb pak?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cNuk e di.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kjo ishte p\u00ebrgjigjja q\u00eb m\u00eb trembi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00eb p\u00ebrcolla deri te vendi ku niseshe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ti qaje.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Edhe un\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk doja t\u00eb t\u00eb lija t\u00eb shkoje, por nuk kisha t\u00eb drejt\u00eb t\u00eb ta ndaloja jet\u00ebn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Para se t\u00eb hipje, m\u00eb p\u00ebrqafove fort.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cMos m\u00eb harro.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cNuk di si t\u00eb t\u00eb harroj.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u00eb puthe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pastaj u largove.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Un\u00eb mbeta aty.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe p\u00ebr her\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb kuptova se nj\u00eb njeri mund t\u00eb jet\u00eb i gjall\u00eb, por zemra e tij t\u00eb ndihet sikur ka humbur di\u00e7ka.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Larg\u00ebsia<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dit\u00ebt e para ishin t\u00eb mbushura me telefonata.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSi je?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cMir\u00eb.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cKe ngr\u00ebn\u00eb?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cPo.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201c\u00c7far\u00eb b\u00ebn?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cPo mendoj p\u00ebr ty.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Qeshnim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pastaj larg\u00ebsia filloi t\u00eb b\u00ebhej m\u00eb e madhe se kilometrat.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Telefonatat u rralluan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mesazhet u shkurtuan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jeta filloi t\u00eb nd\u00ebrhynte aty ku dikur kishte qen\u00eb vet\u00ebm dashuria.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nj\u00eb nat\u00eb prita telefonat\u00ebn t\u00ebnde deri von\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk erdhi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00eb nes\u00ebrmen po ashtu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fillova t\u00eb kuptoja se disa largime nuk b\u00ebhen me nj\u00eb der\u00eb q\u00eb mbyllet.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
B\u00ebhen ngadal\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Me heshtje.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
KAPITULLI VII<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kujtimi<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vitet kaluan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Un\u00eb vazhdova jet\u00ebn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Por ti nuk u largove plot\u00ebsisht.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ishe n\u00eb k\u00ebng\u00ebt q\u00eb d\u00ebgjoja.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N\u00eb rrug\u00ebt ku kishim ecur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N\u00eb arom\u00ebn e kafes\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N\u00eb pranver\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N\u00eb shi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
N\u00eb \u00e7do er\u00eb t\u00eb leht\u00eb q\u00eb m\u00eb prekte fytyr\u00ebn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Disa her\u00eb m\u00eb dukej se po t\u00eb d\u00ebgjoja.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Disa her\u00eb m\u00eb dukej se po t\u00eb shihja n\u00eb turm\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Por kur kthehesha, nuk ishe ti.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ishte vet\u00ebm kujtimi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe kujtimi, sado i bukur t\u00eb jet\u00eb, ka edhe nj\u00eb dhimbje brenda.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
KAPITULLI VIII<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ajo q\u00eb mbeti<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nj\u00eb mbr\u00ebmje shkova te vendi ku ishim takuar p\u00ebr her\u00eb t\u00eb par\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Kafeneja ishte ende aty.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dritarja ishte po ajo.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Tavolina ishte nd\u00ebrruar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
U ula.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Porosita nj\u00eb kafe.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
P\u00ebrball\u00eb meje ishte nj\u00eb karrige bosh.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
P\u00ebr nj\u00eb \u00e7ast m\u00eb dukej sikur ti do t\u00eb vije.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Pastaj buz\u00ebqesha me vete.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cSa budalla jam\u201d, thash\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Por nuk u ngrita.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Q\u00ebndrova aty gjat\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe kuptova se nuk po prisja m\u00eb kthimin t\u00ebnd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Po p\u00ebrsh\u00ebndesja rinin\u00eb time.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
KAPITULLI IX<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb do t\u00eb fryj\u00eb<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb do t\u00eb fryj\u00eb nj\u00eb er\u00eb e leht\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ndoshta do t\u00eb jem plak.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ndoshta flok\u00ebt do t\u00eb m\u00eb jen\u00eb zbardhur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ndoshta duart do t\u00eb m\u00eb dridhen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Por n\u00ebse ajo er\u00eb do t\u00eb m\u00eb sjell\u00eb kujtimin t\u00ebnd, do t\u00eb buz\u00ebqesh.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nuk do t\u00eb qaj.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sepse ti ishe dashuria ime e par\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe dashurit\u00eb e para nuk duhen harruar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ato duhen fal\u00ebnderuar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ti m\u00eb m\u00ebsove si t\u00eb dua.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u00eb m\u00ebsove si t\u00eb pres.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u00eb m\u00ebsove se edhe nj\u00eb zem\u00ebr e thyer mund t\u00eb vazhdoj\u00eb t\u00eb rrah\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bardh\u00ebsia<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Sot jetojm\u00eb n\u00eb realitetin ton\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ndoshta jo at\u00eb q\u00eb \u00ebnd\u00ebrruam dikur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Por nj\u00eb realitet q\u00eb na ka m\u00ebsuar t\u00eb mos k\u00ebrkojm\u00eb p\u00ebrsosm\u00ebrin\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb, kur mbyll syt\u00eb, kthehem te ajo koh\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00eb shoh duke ardhur drejt meje.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00eb shoh duke buz\u00ebqeshur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u00eb ndiej duart e tua.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe p\u00ebr disa sekonda gjith\u00e7ka b\u00ebhet e bardh\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Jo e bardh\u00eb nga harresa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
E bardh\u00eb nga kujtimi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
At\u00ebher\u00eb kuptoj se disa dashuri nuk kan\u00eb nevoj\u00eb t\u00eb jen\u00eb pran\u00eb trupit p\u00ebr t\u00eb jetuar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ato jetojn\u00eb n\u00eb shpirt.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe ti je aty.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Brenda meje.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
P\u00ebrher\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
—<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb, shum\u00eb vite m\u00eb von\u00eb, dola p\u00ebr nj\u00eb sh\u00ebtitje.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era frynte leht\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
U ndala.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Mbylla syt\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
P\u00ebr nj\u00eb \u00e7ast m’u duk se d\u00ebgjova z\u00ebrin t\u00ebnd.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cKu je?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Buz\u00ebqesha.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u201cJam k\u00ebtu.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Era kaloi mbi fytyr\u00ebn time dhe vazhdoi rrug\u00ebn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
E ndoqa me sy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe kuptova se dashuria e v\u00ebrtet\u00eb nuk \u00ebsht\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb ajo q\u00eb q\u00ebndron pran\u00eb nesh.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ndonj\u00ebher\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb ajo q\u00eb, edhe pasi largohet, na l\u00eb nj\u00eb drit\u00eb me t\u00eb cil\u00ebn mund t\u00eb ecim gjith\u00eb jet\u00ebn.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ti ishe dashuria ime e par\u00eb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe ndoshta p\u00ebr k\u00ebt\u00eb arsye, sa her\u00eb q\u00eb fryn nj\u00eb er\u00eb e leht\u00eb, un\u00eb nuk k\u00ebrkoj m\u00eb t\u00eb kthehesh.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Vet\u00ebm t\u00eb kujtoj.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dhe kjo m\u00eb mjafton.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Era e par\u00eb Nj\u00eb dit\u00eb do t\u00eb fryj\u00eb nj\u00eb er\u00eb e leht\u00eb dhe un\u00eb e di se ajo er\u00eb do t\u00eb ma sjell\u00eb p\u00ebrs\u00ebri kujtimin t\u00ebnd. Ndoshta do t\u00eb jem ulur pran\u00eb dritares, me nj\u00eb filxhan kafeje n\u00eb duar, duke par\u00eb njer\u00ebzit q\u00eb kalojn\u00eb rrug\u00ebs, kur papritur nj\u00eb puhiz\u00eb do t\u00eb hyj\u00eb n\u00eb dhom\u00eb dhe […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":23749,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[44],"tags":[],"class_list":{"0":"post-23748","1":"post","2":"type-post","3":"status-publish","4":"format-standard","5":"has-post-thumbnail","7":"category-letersi"},"yoast_head":"\n